30 weeks!!!!

We had an appt with my midwife this morning and everything looked great! My blood pressure, weight and measurements were perfect. fFn was done (waiting on results)
Baby's HR was great. As of this morning she was breech, hopefully she will make up her mind and be head down for her birth day.

~My Belly~







~Baby Buys~




My favorite buy so far!!! I cannot wait to dress my girls alike!!!

~Nursery Progress~

28 wk Belly

28 wk appt and update on preterm labor

Today is the first day of my third trimester!!!! I had an appt with my midwife, Gretchen. I don't know why but I thought she might let me off bed rest, duh! I know better. My BP was 120/60, weight up 3 lbs, fetal heart rate perfect and tummy measuring right on. Gretchen said that the baby felt like she was about two and a half pounds and about 15 inches. <3 She also told me that she was glad I came in on Fri or I would have had a premie at home! EEk!! No thank you! I also did my one hour glucose tolerance test(GTT) and had my iron tested(hct). FAILED BOTH!!! I was so mad!!! So mad that we stopped for a blizzard to make me feel better. He he! I failed the GTT by 10 and my hct was low. I am going to have to go back for a 3 hr GTT and I have doubled my iron supplement. The plan for now, is to go in every two weeks for an fFn and NST (non stress test), and of course if I have signs of labor. I have been having 5 or 6 uncomfortable contractions an hour since. I am just keeping an eye on them and chillin in my bed.

Pre-term labor

I woke up Friday feeling like crap. Something just did not feel right. I got the kids off to school, ate some breakfast and crawled back into bed. I tried to get some sleep but I was having contractions that were too uncomfortable to sleep through.I had just figured they were braxton hicks ad would go away with water and rest. Nope! By noon, they were starting to bug so I began timing them on an app I had downloaded. They were about 15 min apart and just felt like menstrual cramps and uterine tightening. I put the heating pad across my lower belly to try and calm them down.

This is when things changed rapidly. They were soon 10 min apart... then 5.... then 3....!!!! I was no longer able to talk through them. It was 3 PM and Spencer was picking up the kids from school when I called to tell him that we needed to get to labor and delivery quick! The hospital that I will be delivering at is an hour away.

Spencer rushed home with the kids and packed them an over night bag. We were going to drop them off with Spen's sister on the way. (HUGE THANK YOU AMIE!!!!) By the time we were in the car, the pressure and intensity of the contractions was insane! I used what I had learned from my hypnobabies course so far to keep me in control and to not let the kids know anything was different. I wanted so badly to unbuckle and kneel in the passenger seat but did not want to put my safety in jeopardy. While Spen ran the kids inside I used visualization. I used opposite technique I would if I was full term. At this point I had lost track of timing contractions on my phone. I did not care. I just wanted to get to the hospital. I just kept praying over and over that my water would not break. I had to keep reminding myself to relax. Fear during labor causes pain. I am not afraid of labor, I was afraid of delivering this baby at 27.5 weeks. After what felt like hours, we pulled up to the front doors of the hospital.

Spencer ran in to get a wheelchair and find someone to park the car. Four security guards rushed out to help. Two took me straight up to L&D, one helped Spen follow and one parked the car. I was so grateful for them! I was so bugged by the nurse who met us first. When I told her I was having contractions 2 min apart, it was my third baby, and I was 27 weeks she just said oh it's probably a UTI. Come on lady! I had to pause during contractions and go into my own head to get through them. You kidding me!!! Luckily we were given an awesome nurse who got me all hooked up and looked at my labor patter on the screen. Yup, contractions every two min apart and baby looked perfect. A beautiful labor pattern for someone FULL-TERM! She immediately called my midwife for orders. It took a few hours and multiple doses of terbutaline(a medication given to stop contractions) to get the labor stopped. My midwife, Gretchen, had stopped in at some point to check on me. She is amazing! Gretchen wanted to talk an MD before discharging me and he wanted to get fluid levels and keep me longer for observation. Fluid levels around our baby girl were great and she was chewing on her hand during the ultrasound. What a sweetie!! It was so comforting to see her just chillin while so much was going on outside. Tears streamed down my cheeks as the nurse doing the ultrasound just stayed and let me watch her "play" for a few min. After a few hours hours of observation and some other TMI procedures, we were sent home with strict orders for bed rest and to come back ASAP if contractions picked up again. I am so grateful to have had such a proactive and supportive nurse who had the knowledge and understanding to keep my baby girl safe. Also, my amazing husband who kept his cool while driving his laboring wife, during rush hour traffic, at 90 MPH (I learned this later. Ugg!)to the hospital. I am sure he let out a huge sigh of relief when we were at the hospital and no longer solely in his care. He was amazing!!

Baby buys and Nursery so far

My last order from http://ohsogirly.blogspot.com/



Bought this one brand new in the box at a yard sale for $60!! It retails for 180 I believe.



Ahh.. the car seat fiasco. The one I had originally wanted didn't fit right in our car. I know it sounds crazy but I was devastated. I had spent hours online researching and then finding the perfect color. This model fit in our car but I hated all of the seat cover options at babies r us. I finally found this one online and guess what? Out of stock!! I added it to my registry and had them send me an email when it became available again, which was only a few days later. I hurried and put my order in and when to click submit.... out of stock!!! You have got to be kidding me!!!! Third time was the charm. I was so excited to see this on my doorstep.



NB to 0-3 mos sized clothes. I did not wash all of the NB sizes cause I don't know if I will be able to use them. My other babes were in NB for a while tho so we will see.



Yup!I am totally obsessed with baby shoes!



I searched for an old rocking chair knowing that a glider was not what I pictured for this room.I was so excited to have stumbled upon this!!!

Anatomy Ultrasound Round Two

They were able to get the views that they needed. Silly girl!! She still wanted to hold her toes in front of her face to make things difficult. Everything looks perfect!!

Nursery buy!

This was the first purchase for the nursery. I had a blast with my mom picking out the perfect material for the crib dust ruffle and the curtains!! I cannot wait until this room is done!

23.4 wk bump and appt

Today I went in for my 24 wk appt, a little early cause I work the same days as my midwife. BP 108/56 Gained weight for the first time this pregnancy. I am up 4 pounds!!! Yikes! Still below pre-pregnancy weight though. Fundal hight and fetal heart rate perfect!!! <3 MW was concerned that I am still cramping off and on so it sounds like I will start having fFN testing done every two weeks starting at 26 weeks til I deliver. We will also be monitoring cervical length through ultrasound. Due to my history of preterm labor, this is so comforting. Stay put little baby girl!!! My lower back and pubic bone are still so painful. My midwife even commented that it feels like my pubic bone has separated (i could have told ya that). I limp to the bathroom every time I get out of bed until it all shifts back to where it belongs. I can take it though. Anything for my princess!! The best part of my appointment was that my mom got to come with me and she got to feel her little grand baby kick for the first time while my MW and I were talking.

Swelling

The heat is getting to me. I did not swell this bad with my other two pregnancies but then, they were born in March and May so I didn't get the heat. Monday and Tues we went camping with the Lambert fam and then yesterday we went to Lagoon and I was on my feet all day. This made for seriously embarrassing cankles!! Luckily the swelling went down tons by morning and I picked up some awesome compression socks to help prevent this in the future. Looks like tons of elevation for these tootsies. This pic was taken at Lagoon just before I cut the top of my socks to make room. I wish I would have taken another one after they were released. Haha!

Tyson and Josie painting my toes because I haven't been able to reach them comfortably for a few weeks. I love these kiddos!!!

20 wk belly

20 weeks u/s

20 weeks u/s Silly little girl was all balled up and didn't want to give us good measurements. She is already as stubborn as her big sister. We had to reschedule to get a better view of her spine, face, and heart. What we did see looked perfect though. And she is still a girl! My cervix was measuring perfect and my placenta has moved to the front. The funny thing is that I could almost tell when it moved because I felt less movement in the middle and more on the top and sides of my tummy. 20 weeks appt BP 122/54 Fundus measuring at 20, which I have been worried about because I lost 3 more lbs. Babies HR 155 Told MW about my cramping and BHC, which I thought were normal, apparently not normal this early. Discussed possible reasons and sent a urine culture. Discussed my feelings on wanting a natural birth. Good news- the hospital I am delivering at does have natural birthing rooms with a tub! I told her a I was looking into hypnobabies and she said that this is an awesome way to deliver.

Our baby is a...

Before the u/s we ate at macaroni grill where my mom and Scott me up with us. Just before the u/s. When we told my dad and Karen The outfits the kids picked out for our little girl!

4 days until gender ultrasound!!!!!! I am so excited!!! The kids and my family all think and want a girl. Like so intense that both of my parents call my belly a she. It will be interesting to see what we are having.

Happy 6th Birthday Josie!!! I love my little lady bug and cannot believe she is six! 15 weeks yesterday!!! Baby is the size of an orange. I had a dream last night that the baby was a red headed little boy! I have always wanted a red head. The headaches have picked up and I seem to have one all of the time, just the severity changes. Maybe I need a chiropractic adjustment (oooo ooooo AND a massage). Still waiting to have more energy and for the nausea to go away, and I get dizzy sometimes. I really need to get going on the nursery. I wish I had the energy. I need to pick up more storage tubs and boxes so I can organize all of my office and craft things on shelves the unfinished room. Haven't decided if I want to sell my office furniture or store it. I might feel better if I just get rid of it.

Happy due date angel baby!

Today was my angel baby's EDD. It's been an ok day. I went shopping for Josie's bday, 5/29, and got stuck in every baby section. I am so happy to have this baby but I couldn't help but think how life would be if I had a baby now. Every time I visibly saw the date my stomach turned. 5/22... the day my baby was estimated to arrive. Honestly, I think that 10/24 will be more difficult. That was the day my pregnancy was ended by D&E. It does give me hope that we believe the baby inside of me now is the baby that went back into God's arms before mine and is now growing inside of me again.

Yay!

Scheduled a private gender u/s today!! I can't wait!!! It's on June 5th and I will be 16.1 weeks, but it's not until 6:30 P frickin M! That will be one long day.

:sigh:

Tomorrow is the EDD for my angel baby and I was hoping I would forget and let it go but that is not going to happen. I does help to have this little one growing so well, but it still feels like I am missing someone. I am planning on doing things all day to prepare for this babe. Hopefully that will keep me distracted and excited for the future.

!4 weeks today!!! Baby is the size of a lemon!!!

13.4 belly

We made it to the second trimester!!!

My little peach and I have made it to the second trimester. This is a huge milestone for us!! Pregnancy Symptoms~ Still nauseous Constipated Fatigue-not as bad as the first few weeks Hungry all the time Headaches started a few days ago Breasts have started to be tingly again RLP! Holy OUCH! I only notice it when I stretch in bed or cough or sneeze. All of my joints are starting to hurt-especially my ankles, tailbone, wrists, and low back Still waiting for my pubic symphasis to start hurting. It has started in the 2nd tri with both of my other babies and it was the worst pain ever. I am not looking foreword to that again. Still down 5lbs from pre-pregnancy weight I can feel the baby wiggle around all the time Belly is def getting bigger I want to start picking things up for the baby so that we are ready early. (I was on bed rest for 3 months with DD) My office/craft room is going to be the nursery so I need to start boxing things up and moving them down to the unfinished room. It will be a ton of work but I am excited to get started. I've also gotta sell the office furniture once I get it all cleaned out and paint the room. I am getting so excited for baby! Being able to feel him/her move makes it feel so real! I think we are going to schedule an early gender u/s for 16 wks. We were going to wait until my bday at 18 wks but we are all getting so antsy. I don't think we are going to do the 3D/4D package. We want to be surprised to see who he/she looks like. Belly pic to come..... __________________

12 week appt

I met my new midwife and I love her!!! No one could replace my last one but I think she is awesome! Her name is Jenny. She was the one on call the weekend I was to take the cytotec to end my last pregnancy. She called me many times just to check on me. That drug should NOT be prescribed to end an early pregnancy. It was horrible!! Anyways, my BP was 142/74 (strange) I musta been nervous, and I am down 6 freakin pounds!!! Yay!!!! I have been eating so I'm not sure how I did that but I will take it! I am overweight as it is and do not want to gain more that 15 lbs. Was offered the quad screening and cystic fibrosis testing and denied them both. Went through my OB and medical history (which the MD didn't do last appt), and told her how much I appreciated the support she gave me when I lost my angel baby. I wasn't even her patient and she still took AMAZING care of me. Now for the fun part.... I told her not to think I was crazy but that I know that I feel this kiddo wiggling around, she did say "well, you are a little early" and I replied with , "I know, that's why it sounds so crazy, but I know that is what I am feeling". Then she took her doppler to my belly, perfect little heartbeat at 156 BPM. I am so in love!!! She then stated, "looks like we are having a baby in November!" Next I was told that my uterus is pretty far anterior and then she believed me that I could feel the baby. It all makes sense, my pants not fitting early, and feeling the baby super early. Oh AND!!!!! Baby is the size of a plum!!!

11.6 weeks

I can't find my baby on the doppler. I expected that to happen when I first started hearing it, and it never did. I would think it would be easier to hear now that I am so close to 12 wks. I have listened to this little one almost every day and have been able to find it every time. Yesterday, I know I felt the baby. It was a big day for Ty so I just thought that the baby was telling brother how much he/she loves him. Now I just think worst case scenario. Maybe the baby was in some sort of distress. See... I'm totally being irrational. Last night I had a horrible dream that I started bleeding and the baby just came out and we could see that it was a boy. I hate having such vivid dreams. I remember every detail. I know that this LO is probably just fine but I can't help but worry about our tiny miracle. I do have an appt tomorrow, with a new midwife, one I haven't met before but I have spoken to her over the phone. Long story about my old one. :'( Hopefully she will be able to put my mind as ease. Thanks for listening to me be irrational.

11.5 weeks

I can feel you wiggling around!!! I thought it was you for a few days but I now I know for sure it is you! It is the most amazing feeling and i am so grateful for you!. I am so sorry I have been so violently ill. Your brother Tyson has been worried about you with me being so sick. I told Ty that you are protected in a super strong muscle. We listened to your heartbeat on the doppler just to be sure. 156 BPM.

10.3 wks

Babies heart rate was around 150 this morning!!! Thank you little one for giving me peace and starting my day out with your sweet little HR. I love you so much and cannot wait to hold you in my arms and see if you look like your brother and sister who BTW cannot wait to meet you!

10.2 wks

I took a huge step today and finally posted that we are pregnant on facebook. This pregnancy is starting to feel real and it feel amazing!!! I cannot wait to meet this little one!! Here is the pic I posted to announce.....

10.2wks

I JUST FOUND MY BABY!!!!! It was the most beautiful sound i have ever heard!!! I found it on the doppler within a min. I did record it, I will post that tonight, I'm going to be late for work now. LOL! I listened for a few minutes and then called the kids in and to watch them light up to the sound of their baby brother or sister was priceless. I took a pen and marked the spot so I can find it for Spencer tonight!!!!! Ha!!! update............. It is the most amazing feeling to go the entire day not worrying about my baby!!! Here is the video I took this morning. It is all black cause I just set my phone on my shirt, just click on the pic and it will take you to the video. Spencer met me for lunch today because I told him I had a surprise (to let him listen to the video) he asked if that was our baby, and I had to laugh, but he was so excited. I am so in love!!!! This little one is already so obedient. Thank you for answering my prayers and letting me find you on my doppler.

9.2 week belly

I had to take a belly pic cause Josie told me that my belly was growing. Silly girl!

Jealous!

I could trade places with Zoe for a day. All she does is eat and sleep. It would be so nice.

10.1 wks

I am so emotional today!!!! I am one day further than I made it my last pregnancy. I had my D&E at exactly 10 weeks last October. It was one of the hardest times of my life. I am so happy that I have passed that milestone but still fear for the future. I am so grateful I have made it this far. I really wish I could see or hear baby so that I knew he/she is still growing. I can't tell if the emotion is excitement or fear, probably a combination of both. Come on little one, let mommy find you on the doppler so she can stop worrying about you.

8 wks 5 days

Symptoms-exhausted all.the.time, all day nausea, constipation, HB, heart palpitations, bleeding gums, bloat. I think I have every pregnancy symptom possible but I am not complaining, they reassure me that LO is growing. Oh and I have had a headache every day for the past few days that never seems to go away. Cravings-ketchup???? Really??? Yesterday I just wanted ketchup. Some days salty, some days sweet. Starbursts!!!! I tried my Doppler yesterday even though I know that it is still early. I cannot wait til I can hear the bebe's heartbeat next to mine.

8 wk appt

I had my 8wk prenatal appt today with the doc I met when he did my D&C. I have to stay with an OBGYN until I am no longer considered high risk. After today I can go back to a midwife so my next appt is with my midwife!!!! Yayyyyy!!!! Appt went well. Didn't really do much and didn't get to see baby. He said everything looks great and my uterus is a good size. I will update more later, I am exhausted. I feel good enough about this pregnancy that I bought a pair of maternity capris from motherhood. I still have my maternity clothes but they are all for winter. I've never been pregnant through the summer. Oh ya... I've gained one lb already and it's probably all in my top shelf. I already had to buy a size bigger in hardware for the girls.

7 weeks!!!! Our beautiful baby is measuring 7 weeks exactly and has a HB of 133!!!! No empty sac, we have a BABY! The u/s tech knew our story and pointed to the little heart flickering away and asked if I could see it. The tears started flowing uncontrollably from both Spencer and I. It was such a beautiful moment. It's not the greatest pic cause I used my phone at a bad angle but here "she" is! This gave us enough faith to tell the kids about their little brother or sister. Tyson was just like oookaaaaayyy, and Josie said, "Oh mommy! This is amamzing!!" as she hugged me. Ha ha! They are so different, I love it!

I have my second u/s scheduled for tomorrow. The fear has brought up the memories and emotions of my journey with my angel baby......

5wks 2days Measuring 5wks 1day, yolk sac visible Too early to see fetal pole and HB Feeling discouraged even though I know it's too early. The u/s tech said that we would probably see something in a few days, of course.

Time for an u/s?

I AM SO SCARED!!!! The last u/s I had we confirmed that I did have a blighted ovum and that the pregnancy needed to be terminated. It was devastating. What if it happens again? What if we do not see a fetal sac, a fetal pole or a HB. I don't know if I can take it. I was shaking this morning when my OBs office called and said it was time for an u/s. Please, please please let me have a beautiful little heart beat.

EEEkkkkk!!!!

~3/9~ 11 days past ovulation... I am crying and shaking uncontrollably. This is what I want but I am so scared. I wish Spen were home I need someone to tell me it's gonna be okay and give me a giant hug. Quant beta 25!!!! prog 13.4 Update..... Just called Spen at work and busted him away from the checkpoint to tell him!!! My doc is sending over a lab slip for a quant hcg and prog. I'll go get that done this afternoon. Eeeeeekkkkkk!!!! Please please please let me have high numbers!!!!! ~3/10~ Last night I was painting the downstairs when I started getting the HORRIBLE cramps and I started freaking out! I kept running to the bathroom to check for aunt flo. As soon as I drank a liter of water and laid down they went away. I think it was body telling me to slow down. I had nightmares all night about m/c. :( Everything is good today. :D Spen woke me up this morning hugging my belly and I thought I was being raped but he was talking to the baby. :love: ~3/11~ Woke up to bleeding and cramping. I think it is over. Doctor wants to see what my hcg is before coming in. Line doesn't look darker than yesterday. I'm trying not to read too much into it. I get my second beta tomorrow. Still hopeful that this is our rainbow baby. :D ~3/12~14DPO~ Beta 125!!!!! Phew!!! :woot: progesterone 16.9 Can't sleep. Bleeding & cramping not as bad... This makes me :D ... ~3/13~ Small update... NO SPOTTING TODAY!!!!

Well.... I should be 6 mos pregnant today and it hurts really bad that I'm not. I have been in a serious funk lately and I wish I could get out of it. Spen and I have decided to stop trying to conceive and just see what happens. It feels good to not have the pressure but it hurts so bad that I am not preparing for our arrival. I never thought it would be this hard trying to have a baby. Our other two happened so easily. It has almost been a year since we started trying and it doesn't feel real. I'm starting to think that is it not supposed to happen. I do have two amazing kids already and I do feel blessed to have them. They light up my soul every day. I just wish I could give them a little brother or sister. They want it so bad. It hurts when they ask about our angel baby and when they will come back from heaven. I tell them that their uncle is taking care of the baby in heaven. They never had the opportunity to meet their uncle and neither did I. It does help to know that our angel has someone amazing to take care of them until we can. I just wish I felt more at peace with the whole situation.