Happy 6th Birthday Josie!!! I love my little lady bug and cannot believe she is six! 15 weeks yesterday!!! Baby is the size of an orange. I had a dream last night that the baby was a red headed little boy! I have always wanted a red head. The headaches have picked up and I seem to have one all of the time, just the severity changes. Maybe I need a chiropractic adjustment (oooo ooooo AND a massage). Still waiting to have more energy and for the nausea to go away, and I get dizzy sometimes. I really need to get going on the nursery. I wish I had the energy. I need to pick up more storage tubs and boxes so I can organize all of my office and craft things on shelves the unfinished room. Haven't decided if I want to sell my office furniture or store it. I might feel better if I just get rid of it.

Happy due date angel baby!

Today was my angel baby's EDD. It's been an ok day. I went shopping for Josie's bday, 5/29, and got stuck in every baby section. I am so happy to have this baby but I couldn't help but think how life would be if I had a baby now. Every time I visibly saw the date my stomach turned. 5/22... the day my baby was estimated to arrive. Honestly, I think that 10/24 will be more difficult. That was the day my pregnancy was ended by D&E. It does give me hope that we believe the baby inside of me now is the baby that went back into God's arms before mine and is now growing inside of me again.

Yay!

Scheduled a private gender u/s today!! I can't wait!!! It's on June 5th and I will be 16.1 weeks, but it's not until 6:30 P frickin M! That will be one long day.

:sigh:

Tomorrow is the EDD for my angel baby and I was hoping I would forget and let it go but that is not going to happen. I does help to have this little one growing so well, but it still feels like I am missing someone. I am planning on doing things all day to prepare for this babe. Hopefully that will keep me distracted and excited for the future.

!4 weeks today!!! Baby is the size of a lemon!!!

13.4 belly

We made it to the second trimester!!!

My little peach and I have made it to the second trimester. This is a huge milestone for us!! Pregnancy Symptoms~ Still nauseous Constipated Fatigue-not as bad as the first few weeks Hungry all the time Headaches started a few days ago Breasts have started to be tingly again RLP! Holy OUCH! I only notice it when I stretch in bed or cough or sneeze. All of my joints are starting to hurt-especially my ankles, tailbone, wrists, and low back Still waiting for my pubic symphasis to start hurting. It has started in the 2nd tri with both of my other babies and it was the worst pain ever. I am not looking foreword to that again. Still down 5lbs from pre-pregnancy weight I can feel the baby wiggle around all the time Belly is def getting bigger I want to start picking things up for the baby so that we are ready early. (I was on bed rest for 3 months with DD) My office/craft room is going to be the nursery so I need to start boxing things up and moving them down to the unfinished room. It will be a ton of work but I am excited to get started. I've also gotta sell the office furniture once I get it all cleaned out and paint the room. I am getting so excited for baby! Being able to feel him/her move makes it feel so real! I think we are going to schedule an early gender u/s for 16 wks. We were going to wait until my bday at 18 wks but we are all getting so antsy. I don't think we are going to do the 3D/4D package. We want to be surprised to see who he/she looks like. Belly pic to come..... __________________

12 week appt

I met my new midwife and I love her!!! No one could replace my last one but I think she is awesome! Her name is Jenny. She was the one on call the weekend I was to take the cytotec to end my last pregnancy. She called me many times just to check on me. That drug should NOT be prescribed to end an early pregnancy. It was horrible!! Anyways, my BP was 142/74 (strange) I musta been nervous, and I am down 6 freakin pounds!!! Yay!!!! I have been eating so I'm not sure how I did that but I will take it! I am overweight as it is and do not want to gain more that 15 lbs. Was offered the quad screening and cystic fibrosis testing and denied them both. Went through my OB and medical history (which the MD didn't do last appt), and told her how much I appreciated the support she gave me when I lost my angel baby. I wasn't even her patient and she still took AMAZING care of me. Now for the fun part.... I told her not to think I was crazy but that I know that I feel this kiddo wiggling around, she did say "well, you are a little early" and I replied with , "I know, that's why it sounds so crazy, but I know that is what I am feeling". Then she took her doppler to my belly, perfect little heartbeat at 156 BPM. I am so in love!!! She then stated, "looks like we are having a baby in November!" Next I was told that my uterus is pretty far anterior and then she believed me that I could feel the baby. It all makes sense, my pants not fitting early, and feeling the baby super early. Oh AND!!!!! Baby is the size of a plum!!!

11.6 weeks

I can't find my baby on the doppler. I expected that to happen when I first started hearing it, and it never did. I would think it would be easier to hear now that I am so close to 12 wks. I have listened to this little one almost every day and have been able to find it every time. Yesterday, I know I felt the baby. It was a big day for Ty so I just thought that the baby was telling brother how much he/she loves him. Now I just think worst case scenario. Maybe the baby was in some sort of distress. See... I'm totally being irrational. Last night I had a horrible dream that I started bleeding and the baby just came out and we could see that it was a boy. I hate having such vivid dreams. I remember every detail. I know that this LO is probably just fine but I can't help but worry about our tiny miracle. I do have an appt tomorrow, with a new midwife, one I haven't met before but I have spoken to her over the phone. Long story about my old one. :'( Hopefully she will be able to put my mind as ease. Thanks for listening to me be irrational.

11.5 weeks

I can feel you wiggling around!!! I thought it was you for a few days but I now I know for sure it is you! It is the most amazing feeling and i am so grateful for you!. I am so sorry I have been so violently ill. Your brother Tyson has been worried about you with me being so sick. I told Ty that you are protected in a super strong muscle. We listened to your heartbeat on the doppler just to be sure. 156 BPM.